I figured out what love has to do with it

Love
Infinite
Free-flowing
Energy

This is what I am striving for. Dont get me wrong. I want weight loss too, but I think for me the key will be in these things. I need to find love for myself, because that will motivate me to acheive all of my goals. And Im not talking about love from someone else. I need to love and accept myself for who I am and who I want to become.